LEPAK AAAAAAH!

hahaha hello, welcome me back to my little warm house (: hahaha. okay, as you can see, this is a pic that i took early in the morning at 6+am after playing 4+ 5+ of LAN with the guys. hahahaha. the girls didn't want to go so ya :(

haiyoyoyo, i look so alamak, but who cares la! she's shazwani! :D

and this is norita! :D

and this is azri! :D

AAAAAAND WE ARE THE TLC(the lepak clan?)! haha. shaz named us that i don't know why! but ya! :p we have our little trademark! and somehow it reminds me of the hunger games, righT?!!?!?! hahahaha.

THIS IS AH LI LU YI! hahahaha. alemania roi louieeee :D

and this is kangwei! hahahhah.

hahaha all these aside, i had bbq and i feel so extra cos i want to try to do everything but ending up a failure :( hahaha. so we had water balloons thrown at each other, had bbq then some of us just sang to the songs that were playing thru the speaker. hehe. that was pretty much the night before we went to play LAN :) haha.

and i think my personality cmi leh, i think i foreveralone alr. i find myself so loud and i think he don't like that type eh. haha. like i always scold the boys cos they not man enough etc, haha. then i sing like damn loud, laugh also so loud :( haha. andreagohforeveralonexz.

hahaha yeah! and i rmb when we walk to the LAN, we were kinda separated cos we went different ways. and when hisham and azri were walking the wrong direction, we shouted at them but they didn't reply and i'm pretty sure they heard it. so i ran to them and said oi! haha. then i asked if they dowan turn cos they scared of the 'things' and they said YES. hahaha. yeah, and LAN was like so much fun, we played L4D2, LOL and blackshot! haha. blackshot was hella loads of fun man, we were like shouting at each other and hehe, that hady very cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeee eh :p actually others also cute but only this boy got my attention hehe. ohoh, and they all heard my pretty manly monstrous voice when i awoke in the morning :( hahaa.

I WILL RE-EDIT THIS POST AFTER I GET MORE PHOTOS HEHE :D

aku ketinggalan kau.

i know praying alone doesn't help, cos they say it must be accompanied by an action, but i can't find the courage to motivate you guys need. so i an only pray and lift you guys up to God. hopefully it worked :)

anyway, tomorrow i'm gonna be at chalet for just one night (:( hahahaha, it's a happy yet sad smile! i'm happy for the chalet yet i'm sad it's only one night! :( hahahahaha. but it's okay, got meet can alr :) haha. hopefully ah, i take alot of photos then can post to liven up my little space here :D i don't even know why i'm smiling right now while typing, but haha :D

hatiku.

TODAY I JUST FINISHED MY LAST PAPER HEEEEE :D hahaha. and the paper wasn't as hard as i expected it to be cos i actually had time to rest and sleep cos i was rushing thanks to my eyecandy flipping the papers so fast next to me. hahaha. but a blessing in disguise la, if not i do very slow and maybe no time? haha. and for this two papers, i only got two papers. haha. ya, i studied by doing the past years' papers and just roughly read thru the textbook. weee :D

LET THE PICTURE LOAD AND YOU'LL SEE AN EXTRAORDINARY THING *.*

they say, when you see a shooting star, you wish. so,
GO ON AND MAKE A WISH!


i'm really looking forward to next week which is starting tmr! ahahaha. cos i've got class chalet and hehe i can predict alot of night talks and lots of funnnnnn.


hahahahahaha even i talk about it i already veryvery excited hehehe. and i'm probably gonna go church for some running man with joe they all wooo! ^^ haha.

and you becoming more and more like the rest of them alr, you sms then stop, reply as and when you like just like he did, and you know the outcome, i just felt like no replying and yup, we stopped texting. guess it's gonna happen to you too. i actually abit happy when we texted, it just felt like we weren't strangers anymore and maybe we could be buddies again, but apparently after a few hours, you got tired of me. alright, i know, i'm hard to be with, hard to talk to. i've a bad personality. alright i get it :(



hahaha this is damn funny! haha. it's quite gross but funny at the same time la and the kids so cute! hahahaha. and yea, i know this vid cos it's my friend project! haha.

i'm sorry.

okay, i just regret what i just posted, ranted about. yes, i'm only human, i say out the wrong things when i'm angry/sad. hahahaha yes i know, i'm terrible. honestly, i've been praying almost everynight to ask God to help me be a better person, to be more Christ-like :) haha. okay, and yeah. and yeah. yeah. haha oh. i want to thank God for the twitter people i followed who followed back (my gal schoolmates). :) :) :) but for the 60++ who didn't, it's okay i guessssss. haha. i just think that those who followed back are very nice people (: goodnight little humans (:

:'(

EVERYTIME I REGRET SOMETHING, YOU GUYS JUST HAVE TO MAKE ME NOT REGRET ANYMORE AND I FEEL SO SILLY FOR REGRETTING. STUPID ME.

HEADSTRONG.

hahahaha okay, this kinda spoil the message i wanna bring across to myself! but hahahaha it's too cute :") hahahaha. ANYWAY, I AM A SUPER(STRONG)GIRL! AND I'M GONNA BE STRONG EVERYDAY!!!! or at least i try to be. i can't stop feeling everyone dislikes me, just cos the people i recently followed don't follow back and stuffs. maybe i'm sensitive or maybe, i'm not! and everyone tells me he hates me. ohwell, i asked for it didn't i? just hate me ba :) i'll just pump this hate into my mental muscles ;)

for you.

i'll never be the one who you will stick though thick and thin with. i'll never be the one you'll go the extra mile for. i'll never be the one you'll always want to be with.

and i'm just sad how you think texting me now would be awkward cos we haven't texted for long. you say i forgot about you when in fact i think you're the one who forgot about me. but what hurts is you don't want to text me or even call me out for a catch up or anything. i know i should be doing the same but i just feel like the boys should always take the initiative and yes, i still believe in that logic even though many are saying times have changed but i don't careeeeeee.

i know maybe you gonna help me find a better friend than him but i just know no matter how better the next goodfriend i'm gonna get, i just know no one is going to replace him. and i just think that no one could probably be better than him. he's accepted me for who i was, even when i had short hair and called an ugly duckling or when i didn't have straight teeth, he just accepted me for who i was. and i don't know why we are drifting apart but i know probly you are going to find someone better than me for him and i know i've been a bad friend :( but i really don't want to lose this supergoodfriend of mine cos i love him that much :(

waaaa, i very sleepy so i anyhow take picture with my sunburnt face and my tournament outfit but who caresss. heh :p i like the effect and you see?! how much difference a photoshop effect can make someone look better?! hahahaha.

and yeah, i played bad for all tournaments, i dunno wth i was doing on court and lost all the matches i was playing in. and i'm a liability and i'm just not good enough. but i will keep on trying harder and try to improve myself manymany! :)

so i shall end with an idiotic smile. i just don't look good on camera/pictures i know. but i don't care. this is MY blog!!!! hahahaha. oh and NYP tennis players have no sportmanship and are so arrogant D< and someone just tell me why i can't look good on pictures? :(

indifferent.

it's like i truly feel that i'm like one of the worse girls around. like if you were to put me with all my friends, i would be the last few to be picked. you know why? cos the people i know are prettier, cuter, nicer and all. and ofcos the pretty ones are the more popular and most wanted one lah. haha. and i just feel like i'm like a resort if the better ones are taken.

and i realised i don't have much photos of myself in my blog. hahahhahaha. and these are fresh from ytd. i look like crap but acceptable to me :p