HEADSTRONG.

hahahaha okay, this kinda spoil the message i wanna bring across to myself! but hahahaha it's too cute :") hahahaha. ANYWAY, I AM A SUPER(STRONG)GIRL! AND I'M GONNA BE STRONG EVERYDAY!!!! or at least i try to be. i can't stop feeling everyone dislikes me, just cos the people i recently followed don't follow back and stuffs. maybe i'm sensitive or maybe, i'm not! and everyone tells me he hates me. ohwell, i asked for it didn't i? just hate me ba :) i'll just pump this hate into my mental muscles ;)

for you.

i'll never be the one who you will stick though thick and thin with. i'll never be the one you'll go the extra mile for. i'll never be the one you'll always want to be with.

and i'm just sad how you think texting me now would be awkward cos we haven't texted for long. you say i forgot about you when in fact i think you're the one who forgot about me. but what hurts is you don't want to text me or even call me out for a catch up or anything. i know i should be doing the same but i just feel like the boys should always take the initiative and yes, i still believe in that logic even though many are saying times have changed but i don't careeeeeee.

i know maybe you gonna help me find a better friend than him but i just know no matter how better the next goodfriend i'm gonna get, i just know no one is going to replace him. and i just think that no one could probably be better than him. he's accepted me for who i was, even when i had short hair and called an ugly duckling or when i didn't have straight teeth, he just accepted me for who i was. and i don't know why we are drifting apart but i know probly you are going to find someone better than me for him and i know i've been a bad friend :( but i really don't want to lose this supergoodfriend of mine cos i love him that much :(

waaaa, i very sleepy so i anyhow take picture with my sunburnt face and my tournament outfit but who caresss. heh :p i like the effect and you see?! how much difference a photoshop effect can make someone look better?! hahahaha.

and yeah, i played bad for all tournaments, i dunno wth i was doing on court and lost all the matches i was playing in. and i'm a liability and i'm just not good enough. but i will keep on trying harder and try to improve myself manymany! :)

so i shall end with an idiotic smile. i just don't look good on camera/pictures i know. but i don't care. this is MY blog!!!! hahahaha. oh and NYP tennis players have no sportmanship and are so arrogant D< and someone just tell me why i can't look good on pictures? :(

indifferent.

it's like i truly feel that i'm like one of the worse girls around. like if you were to put me with all my friends, i would be the last few to be picked. you know why? cos the people i know are prettier, cuter, nicer and all. and ofcos the pretty ones are the more popular and most wanted one lah. haha. and i just feel like i'm like a resort if the better ones are taken.

and i realised i don't have much photos of myself in my blog. hahahhahaha. and these are fresh from ytd. i look like crap but acceptable to me :p