today had digital electronics and we went to the lab! super cooooool B) hahaha. i think i very lucky, i sit that seat de machine got human talking one. haha. but is like repeating same thing. then tcher say he teach 20years also never happen bfore :p haha. and only my machine got that lady voice! hahahahaha. sch's fun so far, xcept for waking up early :( teeheeeez. hahaha. my friends says my laughter is creepy only. hahahahaha. nvm. :D

life :) my hard disk isnt working anymore and all my data are inside. i have no one to blame but myself /: i lost everything now :'( haha. i have no guts to go in for svc alone. what the fuck is wrong with me. im chicken hearted :( haha. i have nothing good in me at all. can't make friends, can't keep friends. failure. today even forgot to bring home my shoebag and towel, stupid brain. all my friends are continuing to leave me out as usual and i'm still trying to get used to it and acting like i don't care. but i guess maybe God wants it to be a fresh start, no old friends and all. just new. i have to sleep and pray tmr i won't be ao goondo anymore. ugh. sorry gaiz. please be happy all :)

may the camel eat all your sadness and troubles away! :) goodknight :)

this sucks. the feeling of losing a dear friend. so silly of me to keep trying to keep the convo going only to realise the person doesn't rilly talk to you for you. but for the sake of having messages to reply to in the fone. i guess it was like that for him, and now you too. seeing that you don't bother explaining why you replied late like last time shows it le. i guess my life's just like that :) i have to do whatever you want me to do ba. i can't read your mind, i don't know what you want. so i will just assume what you want me to do would be better for you :) in poly, it would be rilly hard to find true friends ba. you wouldn't know who's being friends with you for the right reasons or not. but it's okay :) i will bury my troubles into the sand in the beach where the waves would carry it far away, i wouldn't be able to find it alr :) hehehe i'm happy le! thank God for blogs where you can type without being judged unlike fb. after typing what i feel, i feel so much better :D hehehe. YAYYYYY:D

it's not that everything's fine now. it's just i'm rilly good at acting. guess you don't me that well ba :) haha. i don't want to show anyone that i can't leave without them. i don't want to show anyone that i will be happier without them. i don't want to show anyone i care. just so that when anyone wants to leave me for somefriend or someone better, they won't need to care about me :) perhaps you think i'm selfish. and that's fine with me :) making myself feel this way helps me to not get hurt as much as i would showing i would care and still have anyone leaving me.:( haha. goodknight. i'm sorry for ranting at you :(

haha i thank God for so many things in my life, for eg. my bro and my coach! hahaha. they pulled strings for me to get into SP even thou sch alr started for SP. haha.

ytd i went for tp orientation cos i wasnt sure if i was in sp yet. so i just went lor. haha. i must say sorry to the boy who was doing the mass dance with me for leaving him with no girl partner hehe. but truth be told, he looks noce when he smiles :) haha. it was quite funny cos we didnt know the actions well so it was quite fun and funny :p both of us was like saying "open open close close, open open close" jist in case we cldnt rmb. haha. i like how we would turn around and say "rah" we had to look at our partners and say that so quite fannie :p

there was this malay random mentor who was standing in front of me leading cheers and all. then he started talking to me and blah. then he say im his gf all those crap. when he randomly said "want to be my girlfriend? ... did i just propose like that? ... i suck man" haha. i think he very poor thing :( i think he got low self esteem cos he said "he not handsome not smart." gahh :( then he anyhow find a marker which all mentors shld have and wrote on my arm his name hhahaha. not trying to say anything or show anything. but its quite nice to have someone play with you on the "first day of sch" where you feel so lost right? :)

TGIF :) goodknight!! :)