balabala

haha i wanted to blog the past few days but sooooo lazy/tired to do it :p im tired now but yknow. lifes weird and im trying to sleep but cant :p haha.

todays a very fun day :D haha. had group discussion in sch and it was super funny playing with the dough and nonsensing :D haha. then went to play pool with the two boys. but ofcos the noob me is at the sideline with imaginary pompoms and secretly supporting them :p haha.

i think ppl might think im flirt cos im usually with more boys than girls. but this is bcos the boys tend to not leave anyone out while the girls do /: haha. and sometimes you just feel better talking to the boys than girls cos boys tend to be more natural than girls who tend to be more superficial :x haha. i shall try to sleep again! oinkies! :)

prayer

this song somehow explains me now. i think i just have mixed feelings. and the feelings i was supposed to have last time, just popped back up now. which kinda sucks. but it's okay, i'll be happy :)

haha i'm kinda happy that korkor started to listen to christian music, at least i'm one step closer to bringing the whole family to Christ. even thou i didn't do anything to bring him to God, i did my best in consistently praying for my whole family to be in Christ. and God kinda answered my prayer :) haha. and that's why i love God :)

 
this has been my fav song since i heard it. actually i got sooooo many fav songs but i never ever forget this song's title. i'm sooooo sentimental :p haahaahaa.

sorry, i'm feeling so terrible now :'( i just have to keep pretending i'm happy when i reply to the smses. i'm glad to have someone who actually feels the same way i do. haha. and i know you have no intention of keeping our friendship tgt and you are happy or even happier without me. shows where i stand yea? so please spare me your bullshit and make me happy. when the truth hits me, it really hurts you know? and wherever i go, i can't let it out you know? i have to be so tough nobody knows it's hurting. and you, once again don't put in the effort to make me feel better. but its okay. i'll learn to live without any love. and cos of you, i utter despise love. it's fake care. and all you really want is a partner. not cos you really love someone. badbye.

today just feels less boring without the friday night laughters. i'm gonna miss those. and i think i have the urge to watch the vow again. ofcos not in the theatre. imma loner man. hahaha.

 was tumblring when i saw this:
 

hahaha. i so like knitted stuffs and this is kinda cute. but toms and me don't get along. maybe i'm jerrys. hahaha. i can't seem to fit or look good in anything i like. wehhhh :( hehe.

 ohya. today. i feel sooooo tired. idk why man. maybe cos i stay up ytd awhile more just to help korkor. :") hahaha. and i can feel my little eyebags carrying heavy stuff. hahahha. maybe we got earbag, mouthbag, hairbag, nosebag. hahahaha. okay, that'll be awkward. HAHA(i know no one laughs like this and i think people who type that is abit exaggerated) bye. haaaahaaaaa. baaaaabaaaai.

i think i owe this cake to everyone man. hahaha. if only i was pretty or something. then boys wouldn't mind doing almost anything. which boy doesn't want to help a pretty girl? haha. i think all the poly boys are going for looks and all lor. so lameeee. hahaha. and all the handsome ones are flirt. so i don't rilly care about the boys in sch alr. but i'm also not les la :p hahaha. it's also quite sad la. like the boys only like to talk to the prettier ones and leave the average and below alone :( hahaha.