KAO!

hahaha i cannot take it ah, in the show i just watched which he acted in, suckseed, his smile ah, cuteness over the top!!!! hahaha. anyway the show quite sad ah, and the last part i don't get it but hm, got him inside can alr hehe. anyway ytd i went for a run ah, very shiok heh :p hahaha. and nowadays i never sad alr i think ^^ hmm yeah, my life is this boringz yo. hahaha. but today i got tennis chalet ah, but i probly won't have many photos cos i ain't close to anyone but my bro! hahahaha.

NOOOOOOOOO

okayyyy, when i read this, my heart just died a little. and i googled the reasoning for this and it's cos light takes time to travel which means the star is a thousand light years away means it took thousand of years for the light of the star to reach us which is saddd :( haha. okay, my explanation not good, i knowwwwww. hahahaha.

okay, hahahaha i just wanted to show that i was extremely happy cos my crush talked me online woooo! so basically it's air of happiness coming out of my ears. HAHAHA.

PEEEEEEEKAH BOOOOOOO!

HELLO! HAHAHAHA. today i'm very bored ah. actually everyday also very bored, but today i'm just fangirling over another cute thai boy aaah and the best part is he same age as meeeeeee and his birthday is so close to mine, mine is 26, his is 29! WAAAAAAAA SO FATED HOR!!!!!

hahaha okay back to business yo, hahaha. i just did something so that i won't regret it in future which is to ask my buddy out! haha. okay la, maybe he dowan me as buddy, but i want! i so brave to whatsapp first hor! :) but i got strong feeling he just making me feel better ah, like he dowan be my buddy/friend with me, and only i want be buddies. haha. haiya! at least i got put in the effort to salvage this friendship right! and i won't regret anything in future! :) haha. actually still got this supergoodfriend i haven't salvage yet ah, but i will gather up the courage one day! :)

woah, this is so nice man! hahahaha. okay, hm, i think i'm too bored that's why i'm blogging like everydayyyy. hahaha. haiyoo, i dunno why but i'm still jealous when you talk to other girls especially her! and when i hear that you only tease her, i'm like ._. nooooo, i cannot be jealous! :) haha. hmm oh ya, and ytd thank you for poking me to say hi! :) haha. i didn't know why i smiled like that but sorry! hahaha. and thankyou for saying bye to me! i thot you never want to talk to me anymore esp when you came and never say hi to me >( haha.




(joe's face is just... awesome here HAHAHA)









hahahaha just livening up my little blog again! i will try to post as many photos as i can! hehehehe.

SAD LAH.

i just feel so sad today and i don't know why, maybe cos i'm having my period hahahha. but what keeps me going is my crush. haha. i keep thinking of the little things he does and all but yeah. but it's so close to impossibleeee :( haha. nvm, why i feel sad ah? i dunno! but i know when i had the thought of losing someone i literally teared up. it's like i feel like i lost so many people and even my aunty who's my housekeeper since i was K2 is leaving me soon, in my month :( i rmb when mummy was talking this issue out, i was tearing like mad, at least i thought i won't be affected cos i just thought i won't be upset about her leaving us but i also didn't expect those tears ah. total teared for like an hour plus man :( okay! i not gaining sympathy lah :(

anyway, today i went back to church with joe they all and it was kinda nice talking about some things but the feel not there anymore ah. i don't feel any bond with anyone anymore. and i'm always left out ah. maybe cos i'm really a bad person :( and ah, i suddenly have no topic to talk about with anyone. even the one i never want to lose. but like no topic how ah? :( actually i will have alot of things to talk about but since i feel so alienated, i don't feel like talking to anyone anymore :(



and i know i'm very selfish but i like the people i never want to lose to just ask me out :( at least for a movie or catchup and i'll be contented, like honestly :( or even if you don't want to hangout with me or talk to me anymore, at least let me have the chance to thank you personally :(

i just did my daily routine today cos it's the first day of a new month and i will clear my inbox, and it hurts. honestly. it hurts when i know the messages i delete, it won't come from the same person anymore. it hurts when i know i probly won't receive a text from yall anymore or rather see you guys forever. it sucks. :'(