telling everyone i'm always happy even when i'm on the verge of tears.
okay.

HAHAHAHA so cute :D
i just read my old blog and realised how easily happy i could get last time, for e.g eating a lollipop made me happy HAHAHA. OHYEABOOOOM. so i was thinking, i can always be as happy as i was or even happier, so why should i be sad/angry/disappointed/jealous or whatever shitz.

but i think i today happy til i look so gile ah, like smile smile at everything and every tinysmiled at anyone HEHE.


whenever you're down, LOOK UP :D because that's why hope lies, in the stars, in the moon, in our God :D

WE ALL JUST WANNA BE HAPPY IN LIFE DON'T WE. or let's say being happy is being successful :D I AM SUCCESSFULDREA. HAHAHA. time to train my LoL AND KICK SOME BOTS Y0zZzZzZ HAHA.

there are so many things i wanna do, but i can't do it alone just because i'm scared of idk what. hahaha loserdrea. hahaha. i reallyreally2 wanna go and feed the poor dog but i'm scared to go alone! :( then korkor dowan to accompany me somemore :(2 and i wanna go help people also but i don't dare go alone again zzzzz.

and i feel so ugly today :( because i pinned up my hair and everything, i feel free this way just that i feel so ugly :(

and i reallyreally thank God for dear friends. and like the quote says,
"Friends is God's way of taking care of us." :D

i'm so glad. no one was there for me when i needed them. and it's better this way, just so i won't get too attached. and i really love long bus rides, because i can as much as i want to, without anyone caring :D haha. and i think i'll just accept being your angels because no matter what i do/feel, no one will ever treat me as important as i treat them. and i'm trying to live with that fact now, so i won't get hurt anymore. and the thing is i'm selfish, i just want the people i'm close to treat me as most important, but life doesn't go our way doesn't it. seems like i'm really fated to have no friends. just so i won't get hurt. and i'm gonna start this by being cold to everyone. or at least try hahahhaha.

i have a friend, she's close to perfect, she's like an angel and i bet everyone wants to know her, cos she's innocent, pretty, cute. and people like her are why i can never be secure. that's why i can never believe anyone likes me. i'm just so close to nothing.