HAHA IDK WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME AND THIS BURST OF HAPPINESS HAHAHAHA. I THINK I LOOK BETTER IN BLACK MAN. HAHAHAHA. DUMDUMDUM! :D HEHEHE.

I FAILED MY PEEE HAHAAHHAHA. BYE BYE

i think there's no point for me to say i'm hurt only for you to know yet do nothing about it. i rather you don't know so there would be an excuse for me to say that you don't know that's why you don't do anything to make me feel better. and maybe sometimes you do know, but it just seems you don't care and when i was tearing, you just went to sleep. hahahaha. but ofcos i don't expect much :D but the thing about saying you care, the thing isn't true.

overdue.

don't you just think they look like fairydust? :") hehe.

this was on 1 jan, where i spent almost the whole day of 31st walking around aimlessly, finding food with bestie and the fireworks was the best part to me! but of cos i liked the walking part with bestie :") and that was a good start of the year and i really enjoyed myself hehe, even though our legs were aching and kept finding place to sit down and rest. then finally at 6 we fell asleep for a short while on a seat hahahahaa. :")

5th Jan @ USS

this was waiting for a ride to i forgot what hehe.

this boy looks creepy but cute! maybe me too :p

and this is so small but it's the five of us! 

and this is at strictly pancakes where jerrold had to go off for worship prac :( but i LOVE the mushrooms there hehe.

and overall, i enjoyed everything at USS too, like from the cylon&human rides to idk many more. i enjoyed screaming even thou i said i wouldn't scream but haha, they all want to sit beside me to hear me scream. meanies HAHA. no lah, they're all really nice people. and the sad part is when we were in the bus talking, then leon and shen told me they know me well, just because they know i think alot. haha. i feel, touched a little. haha. and ofcos jerrold too! he knows me well too, and they all tell me i must have more confidence but hahahaha. 

thankyou bestie, leon, jingshen and jerrold (: 

it's like everyone wants to break me.

i don't know why i'm suddenly tired of smiling, like in the morning, i was happy to meet everyone. but i don't know when i started to be tired of smiling but i guess i've lost a bit of me cos norita said watermelon won't work out anymore. something i look forward to, won't work out. maybe it's because we've all changed, for better or for worse. or we just can't accept certain behaviours. or probably, we just can't click anymore. i don't know. perhaps the holidays were at a right time, for us to sort out our thoughts and fights and stuffs. but  the hard thing to believe is
things won't be the same.

and again, a part of me is broken again. because i found out that you actually ain't fine with me. i was partly happy that we're ok you know? i tried to delete the awkwardness between us by taking the first step. and you too wrote me the letter during camp, i was really really happy you know? happy cos we can be friends again. and actually part of the reason i don't wanna ask you out to solve things is because you're now close to many girls esp someone i don't particularly like. i don't want to be close, because i don't wanna get hurt. and i also feel that you've become more of a flirt so i didn't exactly want to talk to you more. i know you're probably calling me a bitch cos of many reasons. and no, it's not that i've forgotten about you, really. you're still (^(oo)^) on my phone because i hoped, things would be the same. but no, i think i'm the bitch in your life now and you still hate me, detest me. i don't know. i can only hope.
i'm sorry.

usually, i wouldn't know if i miss anyone but i will when i meet that person and feel extra happy when i see that person OR when i feel sad and think of that person.

and i know i'm missing watermelonies, because i feel so sad because i miss them :( i really can't wait to see them tomorrow and i'm hoping we can lepak after school like always and be happy again (: i really miss those times where we can just laugh at each other for being retarded and we all being retards together. it was reallyreally fun to me ^^