:'(

i can see that you're trying hard to get me out of your life. i see what tweets you've favourited and i get it. you are dead bent on getting me out of your life. ha ha i'll try to be okay. for now i guess i do whatever it takes to be happy, going out with my old friends, anything to get you out of my memories. and then your mission will be accomplished. i'll forget you in time and won't want you anymore. if you want that, i'll do just that. i'm sorry, really. for being 'arrogant' and stuffs. i'm just really thankful to you for taking care of me, showing concern, comforting, caring and loving me for the past few months. it's been really great having you around and you know i'm thankful for you. i hope you're happy on this journey without me, i'm sure you are since i think you said you'll be happier without me. thank you. really.

note to you: you're a really good boy with a really good heart, please don't ever change that part of you. and i hope you'll find someone who loves you as much as i do or even more. <3
another note: i really really still wish i could hug you, hold you.
last note: sorry i wasn't good enough for you.

holding onto a hopeless hope

i miss you like crazy and the worst part i can't do anything because you want to be free and i'm trying to be okay with that. when i think of you, especially before i sleep, i just tear. i'm sorry that i'm not as strong as you think i am. i'm sorry :'(

balsambreath:

I thought of texting you

"good morning, I can’t sleep"

and then I remembered

that you are on a journey

which I am not a part of

and that’s okay

but

good morning

I can’t sleep

i guess i loved you more than you loved me

you keep breaking me

i really tried holding on to you, just letting you know i miss you, i love you and everything i felt. but now, maybe i should have been like last time, just keeping everything to myself and letting everything and everyone go without letting them know. and a hug from you could make me go to bed happy. just a genuine moment of me making you smile would make me happy. but i don't know what else i can do. you don't want me anymore and i should accept that fact. i'm so sorry i will keep everything to myself now and just slowly let you go. maybe you'll be happier this way because you keep telling me to not find you and stuffs like that. and maybe i should let you be happy and not hold you back anymore. i did try baby. i did :'(

my heart won't stop hurting
my eyes are swollen
i can't do this