I've been feeling so angsty nowadays. It's the period where I feel that I've been trying harder in life than others; in school, in tennis. Why do I have to do so much work for my group while they do mostly nothing? I want to be like them too. Just sitting there, using their phone and getting free marks while I'm slogging my ass off, which includes staying back an hour alone to make sure my pbil works.
Tennis-wise; I honestly feel like I've been making the effort to go for every single training since year 1. But all I am today as a year 3, is a "vice-captain". Sounds pretty important, isn't it? All I'm doing is shit work that the captain has to do, which is all the admin work; while the captain does nothing at all.
I feel like disappearing so that people will actually know of my existence, or rather treat me more importantly. I want them to know I'm not someone they can use to get their marks or thrown aside when they don't need company. I want them to know they can't just throw me all the shit work because they know I'll do my work without actually acknowledging the effort I put in.
Also, i bought a $25 watch hehe so cuteeee :D
I put his ears back because he looks cute like that :p
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