the praise goes out to You! (:

hahahaha omg this is so cute, poo poo heads hehehe.

anyway i love today, it's just yay!!!! HAHAHA. sooo after chionging pbl which i left halfway, which i really feel guilty about. I WENT TO EAT BUFFET. ok yes i feel guilty cos i left pbl to EAT hahahaha. and then after eating, we went to watch movieeee, yes it was moving pictures therefore called a moveEEE HAHAHA. ok sorry hehehe. i am such a burden, i had to go toilet at sort of an unappropriate time cos of my stupid stomach throwing tantrums again GR hahaha. but yeshhhh, i really love all my friends, they're all nice and all, they never blame me :D hehe. and thankyou for everything :D anyway, i just really like today because there were my favourite people or used to be or still is i'm not sure myself :") TAKE CARE BUAISZXZXZC.

i can't.

this so so so much.
i thank God for friends, on friday i wasn't feel tiptop(woahwoah vocabdrea) HAHA but in the morning shaz give me manymany sweets ah that i said i love her HAHA. when i'm tipsytopsy(woahwoah again siol) i guess i'm just idiotic man, i can't even mushy mushy to my parents how to mushy to my friends ahahahaha. then after sch went to walkwalk with jerrold and leon and they're quite sweet cos they ask if i'm okay hahaha. so ya i thank God for them :")

honestly, i don't know why i'm so sensitive nowadays but i'm just gonna say what's on my mind. i miss your daily texts, i miss eating with you, i miss hearing your stories, i just miss everything. and yes i do miss you too. i feel happy when i see you, as in i can't forget the years of friendship we had. i'm sorry if i'm wrong for missing everything... it's just when i look at you, i remember everything that happened in our friendship and i can never thank God enough for those. now we're just friends. normal friends. that just sucks. but i'll get over it, i just need time... /:

i never liked to bother people about my problems or bother people with even being myself cos i can be annoying at times. i know i can never really find someone who can stand my oversensitivity, my overinsecurities, my overjealousy but all i can say is i'm sorry for being me. and once i feel that someone is tired of me/annoyed/irritated, i just try to stay further away from them. because i don't wanna bother people, with my voice, my words, my everything :'( i told you one day you will be tired of me, and that day is probably now or yesterday. i'm so sorry, i was just being me, i don't know how to be like others, so perfectly normal and confident of themselves. i'm so sorry :'(

fishes love.

i really wanted you to be okay, but when as i was closer to the place, i was getting scared. for fear i don't know the right words to say, or not having the ability to make you feel better. and when we sat and all, i didn't even see you smile genuinely. i didn't even know what to do. and it seemed like you wanted to avoid me which made it even harder for me to comfort you or even give you a hug which i planned to give. because i felt you would need it. but time got by and, i failed. i feel so fucking useless for not being able to make you happy, for not knowing what to do. i'm so sorry, so so sorry :'( i tried so hard to hold back my tears at the table, on the train, at home. but i just couldn't hold in when someone asked me if i was okay. i'm sorry. i really feel like a stupid failure, i'm so so sorry :( i wish i could take away your sadness. sorry :(

i'm so sorry for betraying you, i don't feel good at all and i feel like a stupid bitch or beast or monster. i'm so sorry, really...

and i'm thankful for friends, alot.

and i also hope you're truly ok, telling people not to worry actually doesn't make me worry less. it just makes me feel like you're trying to do this alone, and i know how it hurts. yet i don't know what i can do to make you feel better.

i wanna take all the sadness away from all of you. so no one will feel sad, just me alone. cos i'm fine with that. i just don't wanna see anyone sad, esp my good friends :(

MAGIC BOX

HALOW HAHA. today was a happy day cos i was happy xcept in the morning! hahahaha but overall i was happy!!!!!! haha. i feel so exhausted now. i love feeling tired because i can always sleep at night YAY.

hahaha and don't the message seem magical? i was getting lectured the prev night and maybe prev prev nights or smth and tada ~ today my message from God hehehehe. i'm trying to install this thinking into me :D HAHAHAHA HAIS(BAIS). HAHAHHAA.