Month of may //

So this month has been really really fast and this was taken a week ago where i was eating with my tennis girlies hehe the next time we meet is the time we go through intensive training. I kind of look forward to it because i know i will become fitter and hopefully skinnier.

Then, last friday happened, where my korkor graduated from SP SBIT. I'm really like super proud of him even though his GPA isn't great or anything but all the work he has put in; amazing. Sometimes, i see him tearing his head out over his work and i can't do anything to help him. Buttttt, i get to help him in his maths HAHA i like maths.

ANDDD AJC Choir Concert!!! Actually this is probably the second time i attended Jerrold's concert and his passion for singing just goes on and on, from secondary school to JC. I'm his proud friend to always be there to watch him shine in his moments. Hehe and also great company, Leon & his girlfriend, the funny pair that makes us laugh and also the piggy boy who i love so so much hehe

HAAAALLLLOOOOOOOOO HAHA i look really cui here like my eyebags and all. Recently i've been getting really bad eyebags because i can't sleep at night. And this month has been a really good month.

Both bro's birthdays in this month!!!! Hehe. Love my family so so so so so much <3

I love you so

All I want is for you to be happy, I just want to pamper you, just like how you pamper me. I want to put in the effort to make you feel how special you are to me. But sometimes, effort requires money. 

Thank you for always protecting me from other people. You're the only guy who cared so much about me, caring about what i wear, where i go, and just little things to make sure that i'm safe. I'm so lucky to have you in my life and i don't ever want to lose you.

14 May // Where are you

my brownie yum yum :)))

another brownie that's yummier HAHA keed

I think i'm finally becoming a woman like I'm super spendthrift now, on clothes and even bookmarking more than 10 items i wanna get. So to fund all these clothes, I HAVE TO WORK. I've been trying to look for part time jobs, in retail so that I can get discounts for clothes hahahaha but i guess it's okay now because I found a cheaper way to buy clothes that I like, even though I don't know how's the quality like. BUT its still clothes so :DD 

This song kept playing today because i heard it somewhere and it's just a brain thing where i hear some song(samsung HAHA) and it gets stuck in my heaaaddd. Anyway, this girl's voice is amazing and she looks cute :x haha.

Chocolate's been gone for like 5 days and I'm so worried for him because he isn't a very smart dog and worse of all, he isn't fierce. He's so friendly that he might be kidnapped by an evil person who refuses to give him back to us. Sigh. I miss him and so do my parents :"(

5 May // Why?

i don't know why i'm recently feeling really upset over really little things when it comes to my family or me and i think maybe i'm dying or something because there's really an urge in me to tell my parents, my brothers that i love them. everytime my dad or mum goes to work, i see them leave the door and in my head whispers, 'bye. i love you.' and i even had a dream where my friends told their mums that they love them and me being in my dream, still not daring to say a single word to my parents. 

another thing that bugs me so much is my future; and of course that means my studies now and what i'm going to do when i graduate and stuffs. i already know what i want to be, but i'm not sure about how much i'll earn, how much i'm gonna give my parents every month, how to give them a comfortable life when i venture out into the working life.

as much as i hate studying, i keep telling myself that i have to study for the future. everyone is getting like 3.5 and above and i'm here getting less than that. sometimes i even wonder if i'll end up being a roadsweeper or some low paying job, only sufficient to raise myself. 

1 May // Labour Day

  

hiiii, left is me without makeup right is me with makeup HEHE

yesterday was LABOUR DAY and everyday is labour for nickyboy because I'M LABOUR TO HIM HAHA my frequent pms is quite bad and it makes me very cranky and i don't even know how he stands me hehe love him so much 

anyway we went to miyoc warehouse sale and sigh i'm slightly disappointed, maybe because i wasn't early or what but they said it'll be cheap but it wasn'ttttt. i even got a white dress for $18 BUT GUESS WHAT it has yellow stains on it sigh but there was black parka that i really liked and it was $10(CHEAPCHEAP) haha

hehe we ate at MY favourite place; eighteen chefs hehe and cine's outlet is soooo much better than tiong bahru, in terms of their preparation and service! like the rice isn't grainy and there is enough sauce to cover everything. 

why do we get mad? is it because we're hurt or we're just not happy with the person? but i guess all our problems lies in us having too high expectations for people. we expect them to know us inside out, to read our minds, to know everything we like and dislike and if they don't, we get mad over the slightest thing. i'm so sorry i expect too much from people. but as the saying goes;

"Sometimes we expect more from people because we would be willing to do that much for them."

today, i also went to take my ftt and i was like 1 hour early but one thing i forgot: my IC and i feel so ugh because the person said i couldn't go in without my IC and i was so worried. thank God for my daddy because he drove to give me my IC 

GOOD NEWSSSSSS

I PASSED

though barely passed but i still did hehe

avril lavigne is forever so awesome ah hehe