Thursday, June 7, 2012

kapucheeno


i lalalaike this song :p haha. okay, today met him and hm, wasn't as awkward as i thought it would be. i was supposed to be a tool for him, but his girl didn't show up so he thinks this trip is wasted, even thou he said main point is to ketchup! but whatever alr, i feel any nice things said to me is just plain sweet talk, and i don't want to trust a single soul alr, but i just realised i still trust my oldest friend in church :) but i just feel that we're so far apart now. i don't know what to feel anymore. i feel so lost. empty. and today we had to play matches and i just couldn't do it at all, i'm sucha failure. i'm a big fool, a failure who learns so damn slow. i try to be a good friend to all my goodfriends, but i'm even failing at that. i can't keep them, i can't start convos. yes, you're gonna say cos i don't take initiative and all. but hey, you're not even me, you can't say that, you don't know me. you don't know how much i'm hurting. but it's okay, i rmb one quote:
I may not know why, I may not understand, but I will lift my eyes, and trust this is Your plan.
okay, i actually feel muchmuch better now, reading my quotes, esp the Godly quotes :) i love God :)
hehe thank God i have a quote book, story book, zodiac book, all handwritten by me, info gathered from everywhere thru the internet :)

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

happyface


hey, i'm gonna smile like nobody's business no matter what. i'm not gonna let all the lies, sweet talks bring me down. even if i do, i won't show it to anyone. at least i'll try :)

okay, putting that aside, today i was like super happy cos i could see my longest friend in church, jerrold! maybe cos i missed him? hahahaha. okay, who wouldn't miss their very good friend? hahaha. today went shopping! haha. but the trip damn fail, leon bought his shirt, and i bought a dress that they chose for me, hahahahahaha. it's my first outdoor dress i ever bought! hehehe. then jerrold quite sad cos he didn't get anything! hahahaha. okay ya, that's my happy day, AND I WILL LET THIS HAPPY THING RULE OVER MY SAD THING!!!!!!!!!!! I DON'T CARE! RAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRR.

anyway, tmr he asked to meet up for lunch in sch cos he said he having some course in sp, okay, he's only sec 3, but he's taking forensics science. haha. okay, he said we're gonna catchup but, he lied to me so many times, i don't know if i can trust what he says anymore :( SHHHHHHHHHIT.

HAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPY! asfmjaknfawjkdnqwuifnuianguianuivmaskdmasd.
i am askomndjiqwnfwneghrngerugn happy!!!! wooohoooooooooooooooooooo! ...
goodmornight to everyone, may you be blessed with a happyface now and forever :)

Monday, June 4, 2012

trust


i can't seem to trust anyone anymore. i don't know who's telling the truth and who's not. one second you say you're telling the truth, another, you say you're kidding. and everytime someone says he's kidding, i don't know whether there is a teeny bit of truth in it. i don't know what to believe or who to trust. seems like everyone can't seem to be themselves anymore, to fit into society, to make people like you. i just want a society where everyone is just themselves, and i don't have to hesistate and think who is lying or who is not.

and sometimes when i believe someone, i'm afraid of knowing that it's not the truth. it just makes me hopeless again, that i can't trust that person. and when i'm digging out the truth, there are so many doubts, i don't even know what to believe anymore. maybe that's why i have a hard time trusting people. /:

they always say, you can't believe what you hear, only seeing is believing. but then again what we see may not be the truth. i can't seem to find real friends anymore. i don't know who's treating me nice now, and badmouthing me when i'm not around. i'm scared of what the world has become.

but, don't lose hope. there's always this one person we can trust without doubting, He is always there to listen to us, keeping us safe, but we fail to realise Him. He is our one and only God :)

i know some people like the atheist might ask, 'you can't even see Him, there's no proof He exists.' to me, that is faith. and the living proof that exists up to now is the Bible, this book might seem to you an ordinary book with just verses and stories. but in fact, people has been fighting to preserve this history, many have died trying to save this book. and why would people fight or rather die to save this book, it's because they believe God has performed miracles in their lives, protecting them, changing their lives. God is our Saviour, and you would do anything to repay your 'saviour' right? yeah, and that's why the people have actually died to save this book, for our Saviour, to repay our debts :)

i know you all think i'm bullshitting right, but i know God has actually performed many miracles in my life. maybe God has performed miracles for you too, but you just don't know yet. yall probably think i'm a strong christian and trying to psycho yall. but i;m just stating my point of view, and not trying to psycho anyone :)


for those who are already in Christ, YAY! :D God bless you alllllll ^^

Friday, June 1, 2012

lalalalalazy


hahaha this is super cute! hahahahaha. super funny also! hahahaha.

today im super slacky haha. suppose to go sch meet the girls but i forgot i was meeting joanna at dunno what time so i decided not to go. haha. then joanna say watch movie at 6+, so late right! hahaha. i very lazy so postpone to sunday hehe. imma lazy bum! :p


wiggle the fat fingers. hahahaa.
look at my nails. hahahahaha. my mamee do for me one, so i won't let anyone critisize it!!! >[
hehehe i love my mamee veryvery much :)

i'm gonna show you a scary picture!!!! get ready!!!! :)
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hahahahaa and ending off with this vampire like gif :p hahaa.
just realised the nails colour look like blood right! ^^
hahahaha i so scary :p
andrea the vampire :)

you're the peanut to my jelly.


i guess that's what they mean by appreciating what we have :)

hahaha today is a rather slack day, and the only thing that keeps me happy always, is this sport called tennis :) which i just played just now. haha. i kinda like all my friends there, even thou they are all younger than me. hahaha. and the girls there always say i cute, but i doubt it :) hahahaha. then raksha, she told me, 'i want to be like you when i grow up'. then i asked why, then she said, 'because you're cute.' hahahahaha. i think everyone will feel that happy spark inside of you when someone treats you like a role model bcos of something you have. :) haha.


this picture is soooooo cute! and it looks like a kid drew it, which makes it even cuter :") but idk why the link at the bottom so mean!!!

haha. as we are growing old, we always want to be a kid again, cos we all feel that we don't have to care about society, the way we dress. we all want to be carefree like a kid, no heartbreaks, the bouncing castle, enid blyton storybooks. but we haven't realised that being our own age is good enough, like we get to enjoy our freedom, being able to take care of ourselves, we get to hangout with our friends, talking on the fone til late hours.

and most of all, to me, the most important part of growing up is the greater ability to be able to appreciate my parents, being able to earn money and slowly payback what they have given to us, the love they provided us. taking care of us when we were sick, giving us daily allowance, getting angry cos we were doing the wrong things. the story you're gonna read, is the very story that changed my life when i was younger.

MOTHER’S LOVE
A little boy came up to his mother in the kitchen one evening while she was fixing supper, and handed her a piece of paper that he had been writing on. After his Mom dried her hands on an apron, she read it, and this is what it said:

For cutting the grass: $5.00
For cleaning up my room this week: $1.00
For going to the store for you: $.50
Baby-sitting my kid brother while you went shopping: $.25
Taking out the garbage: $1.00
For getting a good report card: $5.00
For cleaning up and raking the yard: $2.00
Total owed: $14.75

Well, his mother looked at him standing there, and the boy could see the memories flashing through her mind. She picked up the pen, turned over the paper he’d written on, and this is what she wrote:

For the nine months I carried you while you were growing inside me:
No Charge
For all the nights that I’ve sat up with you, doctored and prayed for you:
No Charge
For all the trying times, and all the tears that you’ve caused through the years:
No Charge
For all the nights that were filled with dread, and for the worries I knew were ahead:
No Charge
For the toys, food, clothes, and even wiping your nose:
No Charge
Son, when you add it up, the cost of my love is:
No Charge.

When the boy finished reading what his mother had written, there were big tears in his eyes, and he looked straight at his mother and said, “Mom, I sure do love you.” And then he took the pen and in great big letters he wrote: “PAID IN FULL”.

You will never know your parents worth till you become a parent
Be a giver not an acquirer, especially with your parents. there is a lot to give, besides money.
BECAUSE MONEY IS THE WORST WAY OF MEASURING HAPPINESS ♥

haha sorry for this, but i just read something so sweet and i actually feel like a reading a book for the rarest time, thanks to a few lines i read in tumblr, 'the perks of being a wallflower' woooo. and this kinda made me melt, :")

“I want you to make sure that the first person you kiss loves you. Okay?”
“Okay.” She was crying harder now. And I was, too, because when I hear something like that I just can’t help it.
“I just want to make sure of that. Okay?”
“Okay.”
And she kissed me. It was the kind of kiss that I could never tell my friends about out loud. It was the kind of kiss that made me know that I was never so happy in my whole life.
- Perks of Being a Wallflower; Stephen Chbosky