trust

i can't seem to trust anyone anymore. i don't know who's telling the truth and who's not. one second you say you're telling the truth, another, you say you're kidding. and everytime someone says he's kidding, i don't know whether there is a teeny bit of truth in it. i don't know what to believe or who to trust. seems like everyone can't seem to be themselves anymore, to fit into society, to make people like you. i just want a society where everyone is just themselves, and i don't have to hesistate and think who is lying or who is not.

and sometimes when i believe someone, i'm afraid of knowing that it's not the truth. it just makes me hopeless again, that i can't trust that person. and when i'm digging out the truth, there are so many doubts, i don't even know what to believe anymore. maybe that's why i have a hard time trusting people. /:

they always say, you can't believe what you hear, only seeing is believing. but then again what we see may not be the truth. i can't seem to find real friends anymore. i don't know who's treating me nice now, and badmouthing me when i'm not around. i'm scared of what the world has become.

but, don't lose hope. there's always this one person we can trust without doubting, He is always there to listen to us, keeping us safe, but we fail to realise Him. He is our one and only God :)

i know some people like the atheist might ask, 'you can't even see Him, there's no proof He exists.' to me, that is faith. and the living proof that exists up to now is the Bible, this book might seem to you an ordinary book with just verses and stories. but in fact, people has been fighting to preserve this history, many have died trying to save this book. and why would people fight or rather die to save this book, it's because they believe God has performed miracles in their lives, protecting them, changing their lives. God is our Saviour, and you would do anything to repay your 'saviour' right? yeah, and that's why the people have actually died to save this book, for our Saviour, to repay our debts :)

i know you all think i'm bullshitting right, but i know God has actually performed many miracles in my life. maybe God has performed miracles for you too, but you just don't know yet. yall probably think i'm a strong christian and trying to psycho yall. but i;m just stating my point of view, and not trying to psycho anyone :)


for those who are already in Christ, YAY! :D God bless you alllllll ^^