hehe my friend just told me that she dreamt of my eyecandy and i tgt and she said that is was freaking cute but ohwell i know it's close to impossible. but it's quite cool to know that my friends actually dreamt of me and my crushes like how my clique dreamt of me and crush tgt and tell me the next day. :p

and i've been thinking. so everything you said to me last time is now invalid and i can count it as a lie right? but i seriously don't know :(

Philippians 4:6

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

hahaha i somehow feel comforted when i see/hear this verse. it's like i can just commit everything to God and trust him, knowing that He'll take care of my troubles and all. isn't great to have a friend/father just like Him? :) He will never leave us nor forsake us :) hehe, i love God :)

hahahaha and i'm feeling so bad cos i like to spam twitter when i can't sleep when almost everyone else is sleeping alr. i'm so terriblee!! :( hahaha. nothing's much happening except i keep getting pumped up when my friend tells me about my eyecandy. hahaahaha. okayyy :D

AMAZING GRACE.

GOODHI :) i realise i haven't been very happy til ytd, where i felt the whole SP tennis team spirit, which is like whoa, God is truly amazing! i kept praying so hard for the team to win, and they did :) thank God soooooo much for all this :) and i was screaming as loud as i can, just to make sure they could feel our effort and continue to winnnnn and they wonnnnnn :D i'm so proud of them esp my korkor :) i love him so much :) :)

and i realised the only way to be happy is keep in touch with God, all those times i was unhappy, it was because i drifted away from God. but now, i'm trying very hard to know Him more again :) because i know when i need rest, He will give it to me :) haha. I LOVEEEEEE GODDDDD <3

JESUSCHRISTISLOVE.

this is so amazing.
http://www.muslimjourneytohope.com/watch.asp
just click and just listen and watch. for me, it's just really so comforting to know that so many others are coming to know God and heh :) and i hope to one day i can just get my whole family to know Christ too :)

hahahaha and yes, this is Andrea Goh Shue Ting from SP. and this is not some sort of advertisement or anything :D :D :D

sodamntired.

today i replied 'anything','take it any way you want ba.' and he just prolly got tired and said he didn't want to disturb me anymore and etc. haha. guess what, i drove another person out of my life. and this sucks. but i don't want to keep faking any happiness and i'm fine with everything he says. but it's okay, haha and this is just another boy, not exactly that important to me, but yea.

i'm kinda tired of keeping friendships and all i feel when i'm texting them is that i'm the only one holding on. like how everyone just stopped texting me after i gave them cold replies. like whether or not i reply, i mean nothing, nothing at all. probly just someone they could talk to when they're bored. yea. i'm just so tired. maybe cos i've lost too many i wanted to hold on to. i rather lose all of my friends now then they leave me later at a point of my life where they've all become so important.

iwtwfwkabhpdcama :(

yeah, seems like i'm just another girl to you. you probably don't care about me anymore. and you didn't care or talk to me as much as you did last time. it's like i'm invisible. but it's okay, it happens to me everytime and it's probably karma yeah? :)

and you, i got those killer looks from you, like you were utterly pissed with me, and i have no idea what i've done wrong, maybe i shouldn't have appeared in your life at all, so you wouldn't be angry with me right? my mother shouldn't have gave birth to me so i wouldn't have done what i've done to you right? and i could have acted like i hate you too, but i didn't cos i don't. but maybe i should have, cos you seemed like you hate me. and i couldn't find any reason to blame you or hate you for so probably everything i started with you was all my fault. i'm sorry.

this is the second avoidance i will be getting in church. and i said that he won't see me ever again, which means i can't appear in church anymore. which means not getting to see my friends there anymore either, which saddens me. hella lots. but i guess that's good cos you've taken interest in another girl and i'm invisible to you. i got so many hims in my blog. gosh. haha.

friday the 13th, wasn't unlucky. but it made me realise that so many things have changed. that we probably liked each other at the wrong times. when you moved on, then i like(i think) you.

gaaahh. idk why these few nights like thattttttttttttttt :( haha. but i just want you beside me right now so you can tell me everything you've felt, and i'll try to make it right. i just backtracked on your wall(yes i'm a stalker hehehe.) and you actually posted on my goodfriend's wall one day after i got tgt with him, saying it's so darn difficult to get over it, and she said that you would and you replied some day long long away, and she said many others. i'm just hoping that it's bcos of me. omg so bhb, but i just want to keep you forever, like that old man and old woman who stay together you know? :( 
i'm quite happy today to a certain extent cos i finally took the initiative to text you :) but i know our convos never last, but hey, i just start this convo to catchup again, so we won't lose contact or i won't lose you. hopefully you still treat me as a goodfriend, if not it'll just be this one sided more-than-friendship-but-less-than-lovers thing. i don't usually say this but. i miss you. :(

typicalnights

i don't miss you in the way i want us to be together or anything of that sort. i just miss the years of friendship we had. how we just drifted away, just because i stopped going there. maybe you've forgotten me, and probably don't rmb me when you meet more girls next year. actually it's pretty amazing how i never told you my problems, but you know almost everything about me, my crushes and all. i miss having you by my side at times, esp when we are in cell. i'm not love sick, just a girl feeling empty because she drifted away from her supergoodfriend. thatsuperboy is now your instagram,whatsapp name, and i'm hoping it's because of my email, (that.supergirl@hotmail.com) does it mean anything? :(

shabuyeaaaa.

 

hahahahaha i'm not a creative person, but i feel happy after writing all these. and the A part is kinda bullshit but i likeeee heeeez :D hahahaha. but i think alottt to write the description and probably that's why i feel happy :) cos i feel accomplished even though it's only two "sketches" which idk how many more i must do. i'm starting to feel abit stress. but i know, without God, nothing is possible. but with God, nothing is impossible. :)

puzzlepiece.

haha i know how to sleep if i can't sleep alr. i tried it for the past two nights and it worked :) i just thought of playing matches and rallies in my head, and yeah, oinkzzz. haha. and one of this two nights, i dreamt of niall horan the second time :p ahaha. truth be told, i wasn't thinking of him before i sleep but still dreamt of him anyway :) althou the dreams were kinda weird and had no physical contact, i just felt happy with him, cos we were adventuring :p hahahaha.

i'm actually feeling so tired now. finished sch at 12, then took the retest and spammed photos with adrianti and cathie :p quite funny and all :p haha. then went to shop for awhile before going to cut my hair, and ugh, i used the wrong word with uncle freddy(my hairdresser). i asked him if he had any 'papok' friends, instead of 'gay' friends. then he got angry or smth  /: i suck man. haha. then went to catch a movie, SPIDERMAN. and it was pretty good :) actually all marvel/superheroes movie seem good to me :) then went for a little more shopping :) haha. hm, still got tennis twice tmr, goodluck andrea :) goodluck to you all too :) remember to smileeeee :)

i don't know what to feel, what i'm feeling now isn't happiness.

yes. and i think i've gotten use to missing you that i feel nothing now.

wasteofspace,

yup, there is absolutely nothing. everyone's better than me in a sense. like there's so many girls out there who can attract much more boys. they're perfect and all. so who will i be in your life if you knew them? nothing. haha. and they say we'll find that special someone, but isn't it they will also go for the more perfect one? i'm just fading out in all my friend's lives. they probably forgot the memories i had with them. they probably don't care about me anymore.

i know i shouldn't be thinking about you at all, i always thought you were my very good friend. i don't know what i feel for you but. it just feels that i don't want to lose you, forever. and probably when you go to a jc next year, you'll find much more prettier, cuter, more perfect girl than me. so i'm just staying out of your life just in case i get too attached to you, and get hurt when you find someone more perfect than me.

waaaaaaddle.

omggggg, i watched this show last night and i cried sooooo bad, and smiled sooooo much :) hahahaha. i promise you this is one of the sweetest love story ever man. FIRST LOVE ( LITTLE THING CALLED LOVE).

hahahaha okay, let's talk about today. let's say it was an unlucky daaaay. hahahaa. usually i will walk down the stairs with my socks and nothing happens, but today i slipped down the last two steps, holla scary okaayyy. haha. then next thing, i was outside the tennis courts and was taking out my earpiece etc and i dropped my waterbottle, which means no water for training, wehhhh :( hahaha. then when coach was coaching me, he accident hit the bucket, and the bucket just fell and all the balls just dropped. zzzzz. thennnn i had diahorea(can't be bothered to find out the real spelling), then find nearby toilet la ofcos. hahahaha. then unluckily, i went into a cubicle with no toilet paper, zzz. then when i came out, i saw other cubicles got toilet paper okay. UNLUCKY right. hahaha.

hmm got unlucky things mean it can help me to identify the lucky things better right? :) haha. i saw ryan in the interchange. hahahaha. it's so awkward meeting your sibling outside right?! and the best part is we both didn't plan to go to that place at all, he took the wrong bus, and i needed to go toilet. so concidental right? :) hahahaha. hmm, then i go home that time, i saw a butterfly, wooohooooooo! hahaha. then i caught it the normal way anyone did, which is to hold by its wings. which i did, and it kept wanting to fly free :( haha. then i brought all the way home and let go of it and it just flew away ( awwwwww ) haha. but lucky me right? :p

secret: i'm twins with the butterfly, cos i also wearing red shirt when i saw it, hee hee.