John 3:16

with jerrold, nic and leon! today was an awesome friday, the first time i laughed til i cried and i laughed so much when we were playing tarzen the monkey man and say macaroni. and everything, the service, the message is just awesome. "someone had to die for someone else to live." and that man is Jesus where he died, so we could live. and Capt Zane used the analogy of a heart transfer, where one had to die so the other could live. :-) THANK YOU DEAR GOD ♥

my future kids

arie, declann, javen(FREAKING HANDSOME), zander, jaydon(handsome boy), matthias, jaydon & me :-D

i just realised i tend to like people who looks happy on seeing me much moreee, like declann :-D that's why i always miss seeing him hehe. don't everyone like seeing people who see them and smile a bigger smile than normal? I DO!!!! :-D

and i just realised, now society is like all about popularity and looks. personality don't really matter and not many don't know what respect is already. that's really sad because i think respect is really important. like some can even forget that our aunties or uncles or parents are older and we need to respect them. SIGH BYE

to get her

Okay so today is day 2! hehe. so today was pretty much like ytd which means i was sleepy and all, i just feel like sleeping in the toilet or smth ahahaha. anyway, today jarryl made me 'commit a crime' and i was like the murderer ahahahaa. he held my hand to make me go to a person who had balloons(parents bought for birthday celebration) and then literally signalled me to take the balloon and give it to him. when i refused, he started crying like nobody's business and i appeared like the big baddie who bullied him(obviously not me!) hahahaa.

then today i secretly took a pic of matthias and aikeesss, he like almost expose me to the teacher!!!!! luckily teacher think he talking rubbish heheheh. then he hugged me twice today hehe. but both is cos he crying and the first one cos he play with chair until fall down..... HAHA. who ask this little matthias so naughtyyy. teehee anyway i got a hug, it felt good :-D and when i wanted to let go, he still held on and i'm stuck between, "should i carry him and let him hug me" or "should i continue hugging him in this awkward sitting position" hehehe. then the second i kinda forgot. but awww he held my hand today :-D my little curly prince ^-^

(supposed to keep this pic to myself, but this is my blog so to myself right? :-x)

hehehee oh then when i 'playing' with him then he hit me, then i pretend sad face then ask "why you hit me? :-(" then he sayang and say sorry. HE SO DAMN CUTE HEHEHE. and he did that a few times so i got many matthias's sayangs :")

and then i stayed til eunice finished her work cos i can leave alr. then joe and mel came over to my house to eat dinner and almost nothing :-( but hahahhaha. oh and before that i was supposed to find them at tampines and mel made me like an idiot walking around the wrong mall, she's forever blur mansxz. ahahaha.

and this is the view from inside the kindergarten! like cool right all the ships and all. hehehehe.

see the two pretty girls beside a potato :-(

THE LAST THREE TOTALLY RETARDED AHAHA. JUST LOOK AT MEL OMG AHAHA MEL MEL

dang dang3 dang1

okay so today was the first day of working at dayspring kindergarten again :-) and ofcos the kids there never fail to make me happy happy merry go round :-p so in the morning session, i like this boy called zander, he's really so cute because i told him my hand so big, he say his hand so small, and i grabbed the boy's hand beside him and he wanted me to grab his hand too by making me put both palms on the table then i would catch his little palm on top of mine :-) HE VERY CUTE LAH YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND HAHAHA.

then 2nd session there was a pair of sister twins, quite cute lah but always ignore me one bleh. and there was matthias also, he is supersuper naughty. like he is super smart and answer most questions like a young einstein, hehe ofcos i exaggerating. but yeah.

then after we "off" work, eunice brought me to go see our k1 kids, hehe. i got to see my declann. at first he didn't notice me and when he did, i waved but he just stared :-( BUTTTT then he going to sit at his seat, i wave again and again stare :-( NONO, THE REAL BUT IS HERE. BUTTTT when he sat down (his back facing me), he turned back twice and i waved both times and finally the 2nd or 3rd time he turned back, he smiled and waved to me!!!!!!! THAT MEANS HE RECOGNISE ME OK OK OK :-DDDD HEHEH. little declann is mine and mine only. i will marry him WAHAHAHA. oh and i saw little kaden too hehe but he didn't see me but it's okay :-) still the fair little brave prince in my eyes :-P

then i went to bugis to shop and i'm really pokai mansxzxzx. i bought 3 tops and moreee and total i spent more than 100$ i'm so heartpain. no lah actually no heart pain. just pokai only hehe. then we went to watch movie which i suggested and we only left with one called the gatekeepers. omg, i fell asleep HAHAHA. but anyway i think i was very sleepy alr then when walking outside i tripped on a drain and it was a super big trip i'm so embarassed man. and also when i shopping at lvl 3, i popped my head out of a clothes rack thinking it was eunice BUT NO it was a guy and i think i shocked him HAHA.

yep that's pretty much my happy day of little kids and misfortune. :-D

ahhhh :-D THIS IS JESSE MCCARTNEY. his voice is :-D and one of my fav songs :-D teeheeeeeeeee bai baiiiiii.

friend sheep

hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii, this photo was taken in prob 2010 and the bottom one just ytd! and today is eunice's day! but i'm so sorry i didn't get you anything but only a card for you :-( sorry! but i really hope you had a great birthday celebration with all your friends you want to celebrate with. you're finally legal so go be happy and do whatever you want, enjoy yourself because YOLO!!!! hahahahah. so be really happy because you have more freedom to do whatever you want but know your limits ah! we've been through so much, from p6 til now, it's just pretty amazing how we have been good friends for so long, and you're cheesy for saying you want our friendship to last forever as your birthday gift but yeah, i guess i will try to make it happen :-)

as for today, i'm sorry for not waking up early enough to join you for breakfast!! but that aside, i watched the croods with fed and felix and it was soooooo good it was touching!!! and really funny too hehe :-)

then went to see this stupid bear. he's so bad at draw something(or my guessing sucks) and i just can't stop laughing when i found out what he was drawing :-D haha. but i'm really thankful for this boy man, he's like always trying to make me mad and annoy me. but that's the fun in our friendship cos we try to annoy each other but we haven't got annoyed. yet. actually hopefully never. hehe. but also thankyou for always trying to make me happy when you know i'm sad! hehe i appreciate it!! :-) and oh i don't dare to say this to you but hahah i like when your hair is short :-) heh. THANK YOU!!!!! :-)

why do people just tell me they don't know what to say? am i too boring or am i too in my own world? should i just be alone all by myself so you wouldn't be stuck with me or listening to me. am i such a hard person to be with? now i finally realise the reason why i like to zone out. it's because people like you exist. you might think this is a small matter. but why do i try so hard to keep talking or keeping convos with people who are always thinking how to reply me. i'm so fucking sorry for being me. i'm sorry for being so hard to be with. i'm crying so hard now i hope no one hears me. or i'll give them trouble because i woke them up from their sleep. i'm so sorry for everything. i'm sorry for being so difficult. i'm so sorry. :'( all i ever do is create trouble, making things difficult. it's like a trouble processor, everything i see or touch or say becomes trouble. all i ever do is make things difficult. i'm sorry i'm sensitive. i really am. maybe people think i should never have existed. i'm just a huge pile of disgusting germs in a form of a human. i should be extinct and cease to live.

i wish i was stronger.

something's wrong with me nowadays. i tear up at little things. my dad showed and talked to me with a black face and i teared. idk how stupid can i get. too sensitive i'm sorry.

BUTTTTT i very happy today because i got a new twitcon and it's so cute to me hehehe. but no i don't mean my face. just the bear.

OMG THIS IS HUGE. MY FACE IS HUGE. HAHAHAHA.

i'm feeling so broken inside. i don't feel like talking. i probably spoke less than 50 words today. cheeksup andrea. be happy andrea.

"God knows who belongs in your life and who doesn't. Trust and let go. Whoever is meant to be there, will still be there."

what if we all just let go and no one holds on to each other and we are left with no one? okayokay no wrong thought. must trust, no need to hold on will still end up together. TRUST. sigh. i'm so bushed ahahhahaha. i'm so tired. i wanna sleep. i like today. i sweat so much i feel a little less sinful. i guess i just have to let go and let God.

you don't know how much i appreciate you for just accepting me the way i am. thank you so much for everything and anything :")

hello my friendddd :D thankyou for today :D even though we wasted our trip, but since you spent it with me, should be worth it right!!! ahahaha keeding lah :D i don't feel like we wasted our trip hehe. thankyou anyway. i liked and still like today! thankyou ah for the little things you did for me, thou small stuffs but ahahaha. you gotta stop sleeping in fairytale movies!!! and hahahaha for feeding me one snack. i feel pampered for once man. and thanks for the "pretty please" I FEEL PRETTY YAY ahahaha actually no. and you still quite girl lah make me send you home._. but idk idk i think i owe you too many thankyous idk why :(
BUT T H A N K Y O U :D
sigh, i must keep the photos to myself. s i g h. hahahahaha.

HEYO!!!!!!! today i went swimming with eunice at jurong east swimming complex where all the 3 slides were located and the only time i remember going there is when i was young!!!!! and now i get to go again is just AMAZINGGGG HEHEHEHE. anyway we only "swimed" for around 30mins+ then it rained but i guess it was fun for meeeee heehee. sooooooo, today was a happy day!!!!! ^^

anyway today i chanced upon an devotional thingy, which makes pretty much alot of sense to me. so read it if you can! :D hehehehehe. 

READ HERE