andrea.

i've decided on something for a change, which is to be early for any outings. because i realise that i get quite pissed when people are ALWAYS late and are so proud of it and i now find that annoying. and that annoyance came from my thinking that 'you always want to be late and be proud of it.' or you just don't make the effort to be early. and so, i'm gonna put in the effort to be early cos i want to let the person who i'm going out with, feel that i did put in the effort to be early and that really shows the intention that i really want to go out with the person etc. haha. and somehow i just get a negative feeling from those who are always late, like trying to gain acknowledgement that you are always late and feel 'happy' when people tease you about you always being late.

and today my friend said 'eh you so good ah' cos i said my curfew at 12 so i must chiong home! hahaha. and ofcos i said i'm good and din't try to be some bad girl and find excuses to boast about being home late and shit. but it's because my parents set a curfew for us for a reason, to be safe and all. and i just wanna keep that curfew on and cherish that law, before i don't have the chance to abide by it anymore. and i was thinking to myself while going home, 'my parents are good to me, so i wanna be good to them.' i mean don't you wanna be good to your parents? because when i was young i rmb i was so worried for my parents if they came back late and if they said they'll be home at 7, but was late, i couldn't sleep well at night. so yea, i know how they would feel, and i don't want them to know how it feels when it happens to them, cos to me, that insecurity feeling i get, it could bring me to tears.

hmm, and i realised that it's true to a certain extent that when you give someone the attention, they will give others the attention, for e.g my friend like this guy and this guy knowing that she like him, treated her like shit. and that kinda happened many times to my friends around me, and gr. it's just like how the tcher will not pay much attention to the hardworking quiet kid at the corner but will pay more attention to the kid who fools around and create trouble. i'm pretty sure the hardworking quiet kid pays more attention to the tcher than the kid who fools around right? but somehow the kid who fools around gets more attention from the tcher. i guess it happens to anyone we give our attention to /:

and i seriously had to admit but words is sometimes more powerful than actions because in this generation, people are all talk and no action. so we have to choice but to sort of believe words only. like i can tell you i smoke one, and i tell everyone i smoke and they all believe i smoke and crap and always think i bad girl but in actual fact i don't. and this generation now is like all talk and they talk about how many guys like her, how many times they club, how often they fall sick and actual fact is we never seen anything but we just believe the words they say and in the end for the 'always sick' girl/boy, people believe them and say 'aw, she's so weak and fragile' while in fact, it's all lies to get sympathy or get teased. hahahaha.

 hahaha and random thought: when i'm pregnant i must always have sufficient food in my tummy so my tummy won't grumble and my kid can sleep in peace 8)