now i know why i wanna be nurse alr, it's cos i wanna take care of everyone! making sure everyone is happy and healthy! and if i become a nurse, if anyone sick, i know how to help them, to get better. and if possible i can even find a cure for all these diseases. and even if i can't i can pray for those i know who are sick, that God will heal them miraculously like he did before. :D hahahaha. i wanna take care of all my friends too, i want to make them happy. and because i don't know the right words, i will try to show it in action!
but the thing i'm afraid of is to always take the first step, i don't want to always be the one asking, i feel like i talk too much because i wanna keep the convo going. and i have the urge to stop talking because i feel i probably care too much for the friendship again. hahahaha. okay can andrea. you are strong, andrea. you are happy, andrea :D
i know i'm God's creation and i'm not supposed to feel this way, but i guess i'm just not that close to God to the point where i feel 'perfect' or the point where my self esteem isn't low. i tend to think too much of little things and i know people might get tired of me, like YOU. and when i overthink, you think i want ahh HUHHH HAHA. i just can't control ah. and i know when i overthink, no one understands me and get annoyed with me. and that's probably why i like being alone because if i have no one, i'll be happier than having a friend who doesn't care. :(
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