i currently feel so damn bad now, because i unfollowed quite a number of people that i followed who didn't follow me back. and i'm still gonna unfollow somemore cos i'm gonna give them a second chance to follow me back. hahaha. but haiyo, i mean like if i follow you, doesn't exactly mean i'm interested in your life leh, it's like since we were like schoolmates before, or we have spoken before then like just follow lor. but it also isn't fair to me if you don't follow me back. buttttt don't judge meeee :( i mean i at least deserve a follow back right :( i mean, put yourselves in my shoes before you decide your image of me unfollowing.
at night, especially nowadays when i seriously can't sleep til like 4+ or smth, i think of so damn many things. and i wondered what if i actually gave the relationship another try, i wonder if we'll be happier than we are now, or would it turn out the same way? and i think of my supergoodfriend, whether he has liked someone else already and ofcos think of my crush la. hahaha. i wonder why he never online, what he doing the whole day, why he never talk to me. hahaha crush is like that one right, don't know the person very well but wondering about every little thing he/she is doing. hahaha. but that's why it's also called a crush right? :p
seriously, if this is true, it's as cool as the sunglasses B) hahahaha. hmm i also wonder what will happen on my birthday, whether there will be surprises or i'm just gonna celebrate with my family, i have no plans on holding a party or whatever sort. i find it so... meaningless. it's like i don't even know if the people come to the party to socialise with each other or really come with the intention of celebrating my birthday. so i've decided that i will not hold any party or ask anyone to celebrate my birthday and i shall just keep mum and whoever that remembers(not from facebook), i'll love you. honestly, i will. i've learnt to cherish everyone that at least plans to keep me in their lives. and
I WILL KEEP YOU TOO.
don't you ever wonder how you look like to people? because i wonder soooo much. i wonder if you probly think i'm ugly, i'm average, i'm fat, i'm an attention seeker or any sort. but on the other hand of wondering, i'm so scared of knowing, afraid the way most people see me is what i've been thinking of myself, it's scary. and i also wonder what i look like to my buddy and my supergoodfriend, i don't know why you two keep getting stuck in my head when you both probly forgotten me. but yes, i wonder if i actually look like a disaster to you whenever you see me, or a buddy/supergoodfriend you really want to keep(probly impossible, you both don't even want to talk to me and that hurts fucking bad).
but nevertheless, i still love God, probly much more than last time. i've learnt to cherish, and love more. i've become more brave and i don't complain much anymore. and maybe that's because i'm always talking to God whenever i can, esp before i sleep, praying that 1.you won't be sian and be more happy, 2.you guys would continue to have determination and motivation to continue studying hard to go to the sch yall want, and let Him give you rest, when you are stressed. and ofcos i've been trying to be happy all these days, and i have to give myself a pat, i've been happy for nothing! seriously :D but only sometimes i just have nothing left to be happy about.
hmm, i'm being quite random taking images from my tumblr reblogged posts cos i wanna make long blogposts to read :p haha. SORRY IF I BORE YOU :(
at night, especially nowadays when i seriously can't sleep til like 4+ or smth, i think of so damn many things. and i wondered what if i actually gave the relationship another try, i wonder if we'll be happier than we are now, or would it turn out the same way? and i think of my supergoodfriend, whether he has liked someone else already and ofcos think of my crush la. hahaha. i wonder why he never online, what he doing the whole day, why he never talk to me. hahaha crush is like that one right, don't know the person very well but wondering about every little thing he/she is doing. hahaha. but that's why it's also called a crush right? :p
seriously, if this is true, it's as cool as the sunglasses B) hahahaha. hmm i also wonder what will happen on my birthday, whether there will be surprises or i'm just gonna celebrate with my family, i have no plans on holding a party or whatever sort. i find it so... meaningless. it's like i don't even know if the people come to the party to socialise with each other or really come with the intention of celebrating my birthday. so i've decided that i will not hold any party or ask anyone to celebrate my birthday and i shall just keep mum and whoever that remembers(not from facebook), i'll love you. honestly, i will. i've learnt to cherish everyone that at least plans to keep me in their lives. and
I WILL KEEP YOU TOO.
don't you ever wonder how you look like to people? because i wonder soooo much. i wonder if you probly think i'm ugly, i'm average, i'm fat, i'm an attention seeker or any sort. but on the other hand of wondering, i'm so scared of knowing, afraid the way most people see me is what i've been thinking of myself, it's scary. and i also wonder what i look like to my buddy and my supergoodfriend, i don't know why you two keep getting stuck in my head when you both probly forgotten me. but yes, i wonder if i actually look like a disaster to you whenever you see me, or a buddy/supergoodfriend you really want to keep(probly impossible, you both don't even want to talk to me and that hurts fucking bad).
but nevertheless, i still love God, probly much more than last time. i've learnt to cherish, and love more. i've become more brave and i don't complain much anymore. and maybe that's because i'm always talking to God whenever i can, esp before i sleep, praying that 1.you won't be sian and be more happy, 2.you guys would continue to have determination and motivation to continue studying hard to go to the sch yall want, and let Him give you rest, when you are stressed. and ofcos i've been trying to be happy all these days, and i have to give myself a pat, i've been happy for nothing! seriously :D but only sometimes i just have nothing left to be happy about.
hmm, i'm being quite random taking images from my tumblr reblogged posts cos i wanna make long blogposts to read :p haha. SORRY IF I BORE YOU :(
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